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edit:  i had the spinal injection today and went home and was well for a few hours but my heart started to race and i felt i was about to have a panic attack, but i found some medicine to calm me down.  the pain in my left leg is gone for now.  i hope my herniated disc shrinks because I do not want surgery.


I have to have an injection into my spine Thursday, and, hopefully, that will help me heal faster. My doctor told me normally people get better after four weeks of doing therapy & taking it easy, and I went back and I still cannot return to work. If the injection does not help - I am going to have surgery to fix this. I am terrified of surgery of any kind, and it's going to be painful - I will also not be able to work for a while either, and I was not expecting to not be working for this long. I am running out of funds, and if I have to have surgery I will set up a gofundme as much as I hate to do it.

I cannot apply for another job due to my condition in the first place - I am not able to lift over 10 lbs right now, and nowhere near me is hiring light duty jobs. This has crushed me mentally - that my work will not even just let me do cleaning and other light duty jobs while I recover. I need money to pay bills, have food, and have gas money to go to my doctor's appointments {my doctor's office is 30 minutes away from my house}. This has been one of the worst years of my life, and I'm just ready to just be done with it all.

I am trying my best to stay positive through all this, and I know you guys are probably tired of me talking about this. I am in a time of my life where no one will let me work, and I'm probably gonna have to stay on medical leave for a while until they can fix me. I'll update after I have my ESI shot in my back - hopefully, the injection works and I won't have to have surgery. Thanks to everyone who has sent me kind messages! They have helped me through a lot! ♡

edit: i am doing four commissions right now so I now have enough money to last another week.  thanks to everyone who helped me!

currently working on: 4 commissions for RuddersCreations
2 full body & 2 torso up


i need grocery money since I am not being paid while I am off work for a month. I hurt my back two months ago at work {but i was shopping and off duty} so I had to take a leave after an MRI showed I have a bulging disc going towards my spinal cord. I have enough money to last for my bills which are auto withdrawal from my account, but I do not have enough money to buy food. I only have two weeks left before my therapy ends and I can return to work, but I am running out of food to eat at my house. {I do not qualify for food stamps, mind you.}

I have a little bit of almond milk, peanut butter, jelly, {no bread for it sadly - i'd have to mix it in a bowl and eat it like that}, and a box of waffles left in my fridge. I am taking care of my neighbor's house for her while she is gone for a week, but I highly doubt she will give me more than 20 dollars for it.

My goal for groceries is 65 dollars - paypal only {so I can transfer my paypal balance over to my bank}
{also you could just donate and note me if you did it via buy me a coffee - that goes to my paypal as well // it's only for 3 dollar donations but 3 dollars is better than nothing at all}

commission prices are:
full body ferals are 8 dollars
torso up are 6 dollars
pixels are 5 dollars

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